Petals in the Sea

Last summer something peculiar happened. I was walking on the beach sort of absent minded when I came across something red floating in the water. Hardly a moment passed before I realized it was a rose petal. There was something unmistakably beautiful about it, but I continued to walk. Throughout the hour or hours that I continued walking, I kept coming across more and more petals, and leaves, as if several roses had been carefully plucked and tossed into the ocean.

Though many thoughts, lyrics and even a sort of music bled into my mind with the dreamy thoughts provoked by such an occasion, one pierced through them all like a shaft of light.

Who did this and why?

Stories. Everyone has one, they’re all so fascinating. However, one may never know every story, try as they may. It can take years of sleepless nights and tiring conversations to learn even a fraction of one person’s story, no doubt you hardly know anything about most the people you know best. In all honesty, we don’t even know that much about ourselves.

Though, all that said, there is the astoundingly beautiful moment when stories collide. Maybe you stumbled across her crying, maybe his notebook fell open in your face, maybe she lost her favorite necklace and panicked, asking you to help her find it, maybe you heard his song. The smallest of events can cause a spectacular thing to happen. All of a sudden, their eyes make sense to you. The deepest of colors and shiest of ways seem so natural and magnificent, because you finally understand. You’ve become connected.

I find it sad to imagine, that one could go through their entire life without truly connecting with someone in this way. No, I don’t mean by crying on every corner until someone finds you or throwing your notebooks in peoples faces, pretending to lose important things so you can tell their story or playing your life song on every roof. I mean by living and loving, like Christ did. You come across people, you find stories. You care. And when you care, you’ll find that people care about you too. Sometimes you can’t find answers by looking for answers, but by answering the questions that others have.

Like the rose petals, sometimes we connect with stories that we can only marvel and wonder at, we may never know what really happened, but that doesn’t mean we can’t see the beauty in it.

Though there are so many ways to stumble across a story, one of my most recent favorites would be through certain tv shows and movies. When well written, a segment of characters, music, scenes and plots can tell you a magnificent story and draw you in emotionally. You feel the pain of people you never knew, people who may very well have never existed, you love them, you watch them grow, you see them at their lowest. Through Merlin, Doctor Who, Sherlock and Lost, Clannad, I’ve come to see many stories, and I’m sure it doesn’t end here either, there are so many other stories out there…. Those particularly I’ve found to be absolutely amazing, and I love discussing them… But perhaps the most amazing thing about them is that even though the characters may not exactly exist, they’re very real, and they have something in common with everyone you pass each day. They have a unique and beautiful story, they’re important. I’d love to hear every story I can, when people open up their hearts, it frees something inside of them. Don’t make them regret telling you, try to understand, encourage them, love them. We were called to be so much more than this, living to live and one day die. We were meant to die to ourselves so that we could live and to the fullest, for the One who first loved us.

This is why I write. Connect, love, learn and stop judging. Live passionately for the Light. There’s no true goodness in all this darkness, it will devour you and keep going. You’re cherished.

~Tori Lynn

Are you willing?

This past weekend, our wonderful student leaders carted us leadership assistants to the beach with them for initiation. While the physical and mental challenges yielded oh so very much, one of the most amazing moments was one I had in my one on one time with God. One of our quiet times, we were out at a pier-like place, with a small section of marshy beach we could venture out on. I was walking through the edge of the water with my prayer journal, pouring my heart out to God when a little crab snapped at my foot. It stung a little, but not enough to bother me, so I walked a little deeper into the water. Overlooking the sunset, I breathed in the salty air. How can people see this and not believe? How can people believe and not act? “Take me Lord God, all I am is yours.” I whispered over the lapping waves.  “Do you believe?” “I believe” I smiled and giggled. “I love you Tori” “Oh Lord, how I love you” I read Jude, one of my favorite chapters. Completely humbled before Him, yet ecstatic with all He has blessed me with. “How far are you willing to go?” His question was simple. “As far as you take me Lord” I thought about that for a moment, how many are really willing to go where He sends them? How many ignore the call? And now, now I ask you. Are *you* willing? Are you willing to give up all comfort to follow His perfect will? Are you willing to trust that He really does know best? Are you willing to give up anyone and anything in your life? Are you willing to go where He sends you? Are you willing to be an outcast, a freak in this world’s eyes? Are you willing to *really* be different?

During the physical challenges, we were pushed to go further. We were reminded, if you can do this, you can do anything. Breaking the weak mentality is half of succeeding if not more. But first, you must act. Paul didn’t burn out after all he went through, what excuse do we have?

As Ted Dekker put it in Black, “But I’d follow him anywhere. I’d follow him over a cliff, believing that after leaping I’d be able to fly. I’d follow him into the sea, knowing I could breath underwater.” That is how I believe as well.

Live and Believe, Love and Hope, Do Everything You Do For His Glory. ~Tori Lynn

You teach me and I’ll teach you

As we started out on this vacation, I didn’t really want to be here. To be completely honest, when I was young I grew sick of vacations. But for once in a long time I’m looking forward to it. I loaded up some episodes of my favorite show on dustin during the day before and I just finished the last one I loaded, well it was a half broken link, so I’ll have to watch it again later. This very moment I’m listening to the theme song on repeat and smiling.

You can make fun of me, you can say it’s stupid, but I am Ash Ketchum of Pallet town. Most don’t get it, but this is like my life. I love it so much. It’s inspiring. I can fulfill my dreams an I’m not scared. Sure I get nervous and doubtful every now and then sometimes I get defeated and fall down. But I have my own Brock, Pika, and Misty. Always by my side. Ready to support me or pick at me when needed. They’ll never leave me.

We all honestly live like pokemon trainers. We all have our own goals, we encounter people along the way that we may never encounter again, but most of them we know that one day we’ll face them in the leagues. I try to leave most of those I have to leave behind better off than when I first encountered them.

God has placed people in our lives and us in the lives of others to effect each other. Look at the nature around us He created, soulless life, but plants get energy from trees and water and whole other complicated systems constructed to keep every source going. We are constructed to not only serve Him, but to help each other. Disconnecting ourselves from society is wrong and selfish.

Proverbs 18:1(msg) Loners who care only for themselves spit on the common good.
(amp) HE WHO willfully separates and estranges himself [from God and man] seeks his own desire and pretext to break out against all wise and sound judgment.

Some people will leave you’d life temporarily or permanently. We mist ready ourselves for this in order not to be caught off guard. No, not everyone will leave your life, indeed many never will. Leave them knowing that you will always care for them and will welcome them back into your life when/if the time comes.

Don’t shut them out if they abandon you once or a billion times. Think about how many times we’ve abandoned God and he’s taken us back. What if He was hurt when we turned our backs on Him and decided not to take our apology? We are called as Christians to represent Him, so why is there so much unforgiveness? Why are backs in the church being stabbed?

The enemy has realized that if they can’t hurt us, they can trick us into hurting each other. Don’t be fooled so easily.

Who knows, I might fulfill my dream and run into a stranger this long weekend who’s life could be dramatically effected. If not, I’ll learn something I can bring back. Either way, I’m not gonna stop training.

“I wanna be the very best. Like no one ever was.”

The latter half of the ride I spent reading books about mental cases ^_^ that was the quickest ride here I can recall, ever.

Live long and prosper, Tori Lynn.