Time for Something New

Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.

-Mandy Hale

If you ever followed my blog closely, you may be wondering why I’ve been dormant the last several months. 

No, I haven’t stopped writing, it was simply time for a change. This blog carried me through high school and the remainder of my teen years, but around early summer, I realized I just didn’t fit it anymore. It was like pulling on the pair of jeans you’ve owned for years, and for the first time it stopped at your hips and that was that. I struggled to force myself in with a few last scattered posts, but the time came and I moved on. 
I’ve actually been writing in my new blog for a while, but I decided not to publicize it until I grew more comfortable with it. 

A lot has changed for me. I used to write this blog “Thoughts From Hazel” in a sort of ambiguous way, detaching myself from most of the writing for effect. However, I have developed a much more direct way of writing, and I’m enjoying it. My new blog is much more personal, it has deeper roots in my adventures as well as my emotions and I’m excited about it. This old blog got me through a lot throughout the last several years. However, another story is starting and has already begun.

During this time, I co-led a campus ministry on Cerritos college for a while and now I’m involved in a “marketplace ministry” at the Long Beach Town Center until I finish raising support to go to the Philippines as a long term missionary. I started dating and incredible man of God and have walked with wonderful women of the same heart and purpose.

If you are interested in following my writing from here on, this is the link to my new blog:

And if you are interested and able to help support my venture to the Philippines, here is that link:

Thank you for all of your support through the last several years, and especially if you continue to hold to that. It has been quite the adventure so far. 

We’re not falling down

We are stronger now

Dreaming out loud

Breathe easy now

-Breathe Easy ~Mree

Here’s to the journey.

-Tori Lynn


Camp Wonders

Today I preformed my second first aid of the summer, though the first one hardly counts since I had to treat a bee sting on myself.  It wasn’t anything big, just scratched up feet, but something stuck out to me about it, part of this pretty amazing day.

As I was finishing up and throwing away my gloves, he thanked me and I told him I hoped he had a good rest of his week at camp.  He smiled back and said he hoped I had a good life, because he probably wouldn’t see me again, but would remember that forever.

It was sort of odd and funny, but it really made my day.

Not to mention us lifeguard had a pretty good time on the diving boards between swim time.  Being the first place I’ve ever worked (as a paid worker, that is), I’ve absolutely loved working at camp.  It’s been a true wonder, and though I know I’ll have to work elsewhere eventually, the experience has truly helped me a great deal.  I don’t know, I just love being there, around the other staff and the kids.  As I stood on the high dive, I looked around.  There’s no other view in camp like there is from up there, it took my breath away.  When I was younger, I always looked to the water.  I wasn’t as afraid as most of the other kids, but I was very paranoid about landing right.  Today, I noticed how differently I viewed every part of the lake, as a protector, almost an adult.  But to me, it’s still gorgeous.  It may be dirty and full of creatures most people don’t look forward to coming in contact with, but I love it.

While we waited to call girls swim time because no one was showing up (that’s highschool week for you), I watched the clouds stir above the trees and listened to the wind rustling through them.  I thank God so often that I’ve had the blessed opportunity to work there.  It’s such a beautiful place in so many ways.